I found out last Thursday that I’m going to be out of a job come January. I mean, we knew some people would be leaving (we had to interview for our jobs), but I didn’t think I’d be leaving. After all, this is my second stint in the job (they’d already let me go once, after work dried up, only to take me back on a few months later when things picked up again), and I’d been there longer than the others. They liked me there … or so I thought.
How wrong can you be?
However, after the initial shock and disappointment I’m actually feeling relieved. Of course, the worry and uncertainty remains – like how are we going to make ends meet, pay the mortgage, enjoy Christmas this year? But what it did do was make me realise how much I take my wife for granted, and this whole business has made me realise how lucky I am to have her.
She works full-time, teaches an after school drama class, and on top of this we have two kids under four to contend with. During the week we’re like two single-parents, dove-tailing between shifts, a quick hello at 7am, and again at 10pm, and in between I’m trying to grab an hour or two to write, or record my music. We do this because we want the best for our kids, because they’re the most important things in our life, and because we want to be financially able to support them.
And that is the reason I’m relieved that – in a few weeks time – I won’t have to go back into that toxic environment again.
If you’ve worked in any kind of office, anywhere, then you’ll probably know exactly what I’m talking about. Probably my unwillingness to tell tales, stab people in the back, and bitch to the top brass about others may have put me at a disadvantage compared to my ‘colleagues.’ But hey, I’m glad I never compromised my own principles.
I’m not going to bore you with the details, and I don’t want this post to be full of negativity. I’m so done with that. It’s all irrelevant – I’ve got too many positives in my life to worry about it. It was only ever a day job anyway.
I’m going to make sure we have the best christmas ever, even if it is on a budget this year. I’m going to enjoy my time with my family and surround myself with friends… and, yes, I actually did make one or two really good friends there.
And I’m even more determined to succeed in my writing… so that I won’t have to work in a place like that again.